This is definitely my year

Well, at 54 years old I can honestly say this is definitely my year. Still losing weight so far 7 kilos around 15 lbs for the old school. 7 down and 43 to go.  The new school I started keeps me very active and the campus has lots of steps.  I cant believe a full term has gone by and its school holidays. I was going to do so much these two weeks and seamed to have spent most of the time babysitting again I must stop doing that as it is my year, but I do love my grandkids so much will add a few nana brag photos.

This new way of thinking and concentrating on myself takes a bit of getting use to, not sure how hubby is taking it yet but he likes to do his own thing so I guess it will work ok, he did his own thing for 43 years before I met him so I,m sure he can survive.
Been evaluating my life again its been a strange one, I always considered myself as an" in between " becoming a mother at 16 I never fitted in with others my age they were still out partying while I was washing nappies, and the mothers groups always seamed to old for me I was not one at 16 to discus with the 25 - 35 age group which was the best washing powder to use and I was never included in their inner circles I think they considered me still a child even though I had a couple of kids, Up until this day I dont have many friends my age.

One thing I know for sure even at such a young age I was a good mum loved my kids to bits, did not have much money back when but we had lots of time together, I know find myself teaching the same things to my grandkids still love it.
Enough of the family, back on track,  I told you in the beginning I would keep diverting back. Well, the excess baggage I am obviously still struggling with is the lack of having a close friend you know the kind the one you can ring any time day or night the one you turn to when you have a question yes I know I have a husband they don't count they are your family.  I was thinking about this recently how I lost contact with my old school friends because of my first marriage and they way my ex controlled us but we wont go there today.  I actually contacted some of them recently and will go to next years reunion.  I spent 21 years in the organisation (who shall remain nameless) yes it was a church group, another long story might tell it one day. Needles to say the so called friends I had while I was still attending the organisation are no longer my friends as I don't attend now, strange that huh? That baggage has been sent to the lost section so its all good.  Now anyone who is reading this, whats your thoughts on the true friend stuff? do you all have one? Or is it just something we see in the movies and really you are all just as alone as me, even though I have a large loving family around me and a few social groups I see regularly.
Talk again soon Christina.